My breakfast and probably my lunch too. Mid-term exams are finally over╰(°ㅂ°)╯ #breakfast #eggs #toast #josslegrosdindon #食事 #卵 #フランス
I made this little guy! He’s not finished but finally beginning the slow process of getting a Halloween episode scripted, shot and edited for next month. The pressure is on, this has to be my best video yet - just because it has the potential to be. This post is gonna be me talking personally about YouTube and my failings while there’s an adorable WIP pumpkin up there staring at me while I write this.
I’ve been doing YouTube on and off for ..almost three years? I literally thought it was only two. I have had literally no success while doing this, I started off as an awful LP channel, moved into FIFA content because I could actually control and create my own content where I found a very small but incredibly cool Saudi fan base. But I was just creating videos to a formula that I made, it was all based off of how I did playing the game and the episode was decided in those 10-20 minutes. I wasn’t having fun, I was stalling creating content and I wasn’t gaining little subscribers. So I decided to go for a change.
The Fresh Start
On the 2nd of December last year I finished my first serious video, Bubsy Retrospective. I think I put more effort into the opening 40 seconds than I had done in a single FIFA video. I actually had a video I could show people and be fairly comfortable about it. But after spending all those weeks researching, scripting and editing footage, I was a naive. I realized that just because I spent weeks instead of hours working on it - the views weren’t going to appear.
I thought I’d found an epic subject for a video when the Putty Squad remake showed up for the PS4 launch and they were advertising reviews for a game that was never released. There was a big confusion about it, and because I’d owned both the Putty games as a kid it was a perfect subject. ‘Potential views!’ I probably paraphrased that at one point in my head. Unfortunately my HDD died over halfway into the edit, and it was delayed until I could afford a new one. And I was/and still a very poor man. There was a unbelievable fairy tale ending which I won’t go into (it’s at the end of the video), I finished it and tried to share it as much as possible. The Amiga community! All the Reddits! Shadowbanned! Anywhere possible! Kotaku! I don’t …know why I thought submitting to Kotaku would work.
That was the hardest one to take, it got limited views and finding the inspiration to create a new video was tough. I had made the decision to hide almost all of my FIFA videos so new subscribers would know where to find my new brand of content and I ended sacrificing 50,000 views. Time passed, videos were made but by August I’d only made 3 new videos. Depression and working on film projects (or usually just sitting looking at both of them and failing to do either) meant somehow five months passed without a video. Five months. I still have no idea how it happened.
Coming Back With The Simpsons
The Simpsons Early Video Games video was my hardest one yet, it’s basically why I stopped for so long. I edited the beginning and then realized I had FIVE GAMES to write, research, record and edit footage for a single video that wouldn’t get many views. I was completely oblivious to how long it had been, someone shouted at me on my Steam account (I met him once on a game of Global Offensive?) and I that was what I needed. Just something to push me over the edge and to get the job done.
I produced a video I am genuinely happy with. I put £15 of my limited money on my advertising account and somehow ended up with 2,000 views on the video. Still, after almost 3 years on YouTube I only have 253 subscribers. The entire mission this year was to hit 250, and thankfully this video allowed me to hit that. But it’s such a small number. You listen to YouTubers, you desperately try to work out what they’re doing that you’re not doing and try to create your own version of that? It probably won’t work. I remember watching a big YouTuber stream back when I was still making FIFA videos and I remember he passed a small comment like “If you can’t get signed to a network then you probably shouldn’t be trying”. It really hurt. Maybe there wasn’t some magical wall that stops you from getting people to see your videos, maybe I’m just not good enough to get past it?
I’ve now created three videos in 3 weeks and still every time I make a video I think is good enough - I lose a subscriber. I forced myself to finish the last video because I knew deep down that if I didn’t finish it and walked away again - it would regret it. The video was two weeks later than planned, but it’s done and I’m proud of that. It’s definitely not perfect and one of my only active subscribers dropped by to tell me that. I feel like I’ve alienated my audience by creating side projects to say “Hey! I’m active!” instead of moving on with a big punchy epic like the videos linked in this post.
I won’t make that mistake again, I have a month to create the best video yet for Halloween. This is a pumpkin I created this morning to throw in there somewhere. I’m no longer creating videos for exposure, to try and find subscribers or for any real goal - this is personal now. Perhaps I can’t find an audience. But I know that giving up and just going back to writing a film script that doesn’t get shot or fighting depression while looking at the two things again will be the biggest mistake. If I stop now it’ll be the biggest regret. I’m going to create the best video that I can, stick the same £15 in my ad account once I’m done and just move on to the next. This has been a post.
My Japanese translation class and my corporate management class overlap each other and I’m not ubiquitous yet. #imdoomed #uni
Arrived this morning. Thank you for this present @teamhibbert :) ☆
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